We need to talk.
Don't worry. I don't have major life problems or anything. This isn't like that post I threw at you where I used phrases like "cry by yourself in the shower." We're not going that deep here.
How do you get things done in your day? Seriously. I'm only going on Facebook twice a day and I'm STILL having issues getting in bed before 1:30. And getting to my 11 AM class- WHICH IS MY FIRST OF THE DAY- on time! What I am even doing??
Well, what happens in my morning? Get up. Stretch. Some days of the week, I eat a bowl of cereal, drink some orange juice, take my vitamin, and have my green tea. I check my email and Facebook, and then go to a couple other websites like the NYTimes, Busted Halo, and One Lovely Life. I also check the weather.
Let me make out this timeline for you: I get up around 9 AM. I usually don't start dressing until 10 AM, and I try to be out the door at 10:25 AM for my 10:40 class, 10:50 (at the latest) for my 11 AM. Is all of that seriously taking me more than an hour?
The same stuff happens at night, around bedtime. Once I'm done with my homework, which usually isn't too terribly late, I check my email and Facebook, Joy the Baker (if I haven't already succumbed earlier in the day), my sports teams' scores, check out Foodgawker, check the dining hall menu for tomorrow, make my to-do list, and do the daily readings. I may also journal. On top of that, I need to do all that regular bedtime stuff like brush my teeth, floss, wash my face, swish Listerine (which I have been really good about this week), etc.
On nights like tonight, I totally could have been in bed at 12:30, ready to get up and do my Friday morning workout at 8:30. What did I do instead? I baked cookies. Really.
They're brownie chip cookies. I got the recipe here when I was trying to bake something for my roommate's birthday last year. They're made with brownie mix and chocolate chips. Super easy and fast. This is what the dough looks like when they come together.
Had to include this because it would have been a great picture had the angle not been so screwy.
Delicious.
Anyways. And now it's 1:20 AM. And I'm trying to get up at 8:30 tomorrow to work out? What is wrong with me? Why am I blogging right now??
Efficiency. That's the mantra for next week. Get up and do stuff. Cut out or do the less-important stuff last. Oy. Failing so hard at that right now.
But on the bright side, I've been a very good girl this week by taking my vitamin every morning and drinking green tea. I've also been flossing and swishing Listerine at least once a day. I've been snacking a little bit less at night, excepting the fact that I have been craving chocolate like a madwoman. It's been a busy week, so I haven't been able to work out as much as I would like, but that's all right. Sometimes you have a busy week and that needs to be put aside. I think next week will get me back on track.
Part II (because I stopped writing that at about 1:30 AM the other night, thinking that maybe I should go to bed like I was complaining about the whole time.):
It shouldn't be so easy to:
Hit the snooze button.
Put off calling your family.
Buy Starbucks.
Eat French fries instead of real vegetables.
Shop online.
Ignore a text message.
Delete an email.
Reject a donation request.
Let your mind wander during worship and prayer.
Stay up late doing nothing of importance.
Grind on a girl without introducing yourself, or even asking her if it's all right.
Grind with a guy, because your friends are dancing with guys too and you don't want to be left out.
Choose to browse Foodgawker for an hour instead of work out.
Eat cookies and chocolate.
Not eat salad greens and brown rice and other vegetables.
It should be easier to:
Start up a conversation with people.
Say no.
Say yes.
Get up and go in the morning.
Focus.
Give.
See the signs.
Listen to your gut.
Keep from running into anything and everything...all the time.
Tell the truth.
Know the truth.
Can you maybe see where I'm going here/how this relates to Part I? I've been back at school a month already- officially one month today. And when I look at my goals and resolutions, I think I'm doing all right. Could be better, could be worse. Some things are more spectacular than others. And then there's stuff that still leaves me totally dissatisfied. Those are the "It shouldn't be so easy" things. Those things get in the way of achieving my goals. The "should be easier" list? That's the kind of stuff that needs to happen in order to get where I want to be. And it feels like something's in the way.
Ugh. Life. I need to bake something.
Love,
Imara
Here's a song that was really speaking to me this morning. I thought of it outside of its Christian music context. If you watch the video- don't worry. No one dies.
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